days and nights

Just letting everyone know what is going on and why I am somewhat silent lately. My mother had surgery Monday to remove a couple Lymphnodes that were causing issues. They think she may have Hodgkins or non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. We are going to find out by the end of the week if she is positive or not. If not, there is a whole process that we get to start again. More on this later.

It has been taking a pretty heavy toll on me. Mostly because of the constant sleepless nights. Now that things are starting to settle down a bit, I figure that I should be able to get back to writing here a bit more. I have a plan of a few things I would like to write about, but need some time to put them together.

Look forward to some stuff on Ubuntu 8.04. Fedora 9, my knees, work, the new name we are going to be giving the company, and our deployment schedule for the boxes. Keep up the faith, and thanks for the emails from those of you that sent them in.

I can’t believe that game. The whole deal with the three fouls right in a row. What a sham. Only one of them was legit. The other two were a sack of shit with one called by a ref that was not even in position to make the call. I hate it when they give us a reason to doubt their honesty. And right now, I am doubting the hell out of it.

Yeah, I get it. I sound like the pissed off fan that just lost. I get it. But you watch those as an impartial person to the series and tell me I am wrong.

Either way, such is life. I will quit my pissing and moaning.

There are currently SOME pictures of the party up and more about to go up. It is a slow process because I don’t like the zip functionality of Gallery2, but they will get there. Then to name them and throw up descriptions. *sigh*

They will be available publicly, so feel free to head there and check out what I have so far and if you have any more you would like to submit, I would be more than happy to take them. Also, if you would like a gallery of your own for the Frak Party, please let me know. I would be more than happy to host the pics for you.

Pictures and such…

Yeah, I just got these headphones for like 90% off. It rocked socks. I have needed some new ones for quite some time. I found these for $4.90 and decided to get a couple pairs of them. Life is good.

HHI Black iSolate Earphones rock socks. I hope. Anyways, they have changed the deal to the ice blue ones… For twice the price. Crappy for all of you…

So yeah. I have had a LOT of problems sleeping for quite some time. Months really. Lots of stress mixed with some pretty nasty dreams all came together to make me sleep like crap.

Last night was a whole new world though. I layed down on my couch for a while to get in a quick cat nap. Yeah, it didn’t work out that way. I was asleep by about 7:30PM and ended up waking up at around 8:30AM. 13 hours of pure AWESOME!

It made me think about some things as well. I have been having some issues with just feeling crappy all around for several months. I just put two and two together and realized that sleep deprivation can kill you. So here is a list of the ways it can kill you. I pulled this from this site.

• depression
• heart disease
• hypertension
• irritability
• slower reaction times
• slurred speech
• tremors

To make this even worse, you can actually get fat from not sleeping. What a sham. Waste 8 hours of your day or more sleeping, or get fat and die of heart disease. Meh, at least I feel better. I am sure I will fall back into my lack-o-slumber in the next week or so.

So yeah. I have nothing to write. I am tired and just not feeling chatty. Maybe I will post something meaningful tomorrow. I have been thinking about doing a series on my business startup. I think that might be interesting and may hopefully help someone in the future. We will see.

I was driving through Ogden today and noticed something. There is a bit of magic left in this old town.

For the last several decades, Ogden has been a growing pit evil. It seemed like it had life today though. There were people out. I got WAVED at. How awesome is that? It just doesn’t happen here! Maybe things really are turning around. Who the hell knows? It remains to be seen…

I love it when you meet someone and there is that instant spark. Instant chemistry that tells you that you and this person have a real chance at something. Yeah, I know it really doesn’t mean a whole lot, but it is nice to feel that after a complete absence of it for nearly 5 years.

Yeah, it is 1:30 in the morning and I am just simply blown away. My mind is buzzing and no matter what I do to try to sleep, nothing works. I just love it. I feel like a damn teenager again. Just less stupid. hah!

I feel like I am in one of those movies where everything is normal and then suddenly the whole thing just spirals out of control. The crazy/jumpy music done totally in minors starts playing and the chaotic camera movements start… People are running around and there is that general sense of being fucked with nothing you can do about it.

It makes me start to think that everything else is normal and I am the one that is starting to go nuts.